Written 2/25/14
I've been posting updates and pictures but not on how I'm doing and pregnancy its self is going. I find that, because of the nature of this pregnancy, there is a weird spot light on me and normally I'm not one to shy away from attention but I've been public with this surrogacy since Jan. 2013 so the spot light makes me a bit uncomfortable at this point. To the point where when strangers ask about what I'm having or if its my 3rd. I don't even bother telling them the truth unless I may see them again. Or I'll say "actually its not mine, I'm carrying the baby for someone else" and leave it at that. short and sweet. Even close friends of mine when greeting me tend to stare at me like I'm going to tell them something pregnancy/surrogacy related instead of greeting them in return.
Lots of weird/negative reactions and questions come my way along with some crazy assumptions. Someone once said to a common friend " her husband let her have sex with someone else to have their baby for them?" I chalk that up to pure ignorance. We did even get some slack from a distant, very religious and elderly, relative of my husbands. Something about this all, baby included, and abomination and it being a sin. I could argue that I'm doing G_D's work. Again, that's just ignorance and 80+ years of an oppressive religious upbringing. One of the moms at my son's preschool asked me at 10 weeks along if I had just gained weight or was pregnant (who does that?!?!) and then when I told her in private she was kind of freaked out then went an announced it randomly to the entire playground, on 3 separate occasions with me there and has now informed every single family at the school. That's really my business to tell perfect strangers in my opinion. The details people want to know too. I'm aware they are curious but perfect stranger will ask for very intimate details. Last month I made the receptionist at Benji's school cry when I told her then found myself in a hug. I'm not a hugger.
While chatting with a friend of mine, who is just 4 weeks ahead of me, she started to complain about her braxton hicks contractions. She then asked me about mine and I realized I hadn't had any yet. for 22 weeks and a 4th pregnancy they should have started weeks before. Later that day I was sitting on my couch on my Kindle and I noticed my uterus tighten ever so slightly as I had noticed several times in the last week and it hit me. OH YEA! that's a braxton hicks. its been 5 years since I was pregnant so I only remember the stronger BH from the end of my pregnancy. For some reason I though it was just the baby moving around and irritating my uterus. that right there is an example of how bad my pregnancy brain is. it started during IVF when I was on 3 different meds/hormones at once. Its been awful this time. I'm so glad I took this time off from school or else I'd be failing. I know its the 4th pregnancy and everything get worse with each pregnancy but its bad. So bad I cant even recall an example to share with you.
While pregnant and still on some of the hormones I was sleepy a lot. the day after I went off my last shot was the day I got back my energy. I've had tiered days here and there since but nothing like this week. I've been fighting a sinus infection for the last 2 weeks and apparently my body can only do one thing at a time because I was napping every day and was dragging when I was awake. Thankfully my husband came home early to help out and we did take out several times but with being pregnant I cant really take anything so I just powered through it. Just before I got sick we had new carpets installed in our formal living room or as we call it, the play room. The moment they walked into the house with the rugs I was miserable. I've done everything besides have them stemmed cleaned but apparently I had a reaction to the scotchgard spray. its better now but I'm still not 100%.
Part 2 coming soon.....
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